The Journey Begins
It starts when you finally make the decision. There are a million different things that get you there, to that point of change, but for most of us it’s a combination of desperation and hope.
Maybe you’re trying to break through the traumas that hold you back, or maybe you’re trying to find yourself in the midst of so many messages burned into your soul by well meaning but poorly informed people.
It really doesn’t matter how you got there, it just matters that you made the decision.
And you know this journey will change you, as it will hurt you. Growth is like that. Nothing worthwhile comes easy, but some things cost a lot more than the others. But you’ve accepted that.
You’ve reached that point where you can no longer live where you are, even though you have only the faintest idea of where you want to end up. So you strengthen your soul for the onslaught you anticipate.
And you turn your mind inwards.
In doing so, the outside world becomes less important, less impactful, less relevant. In this travail through the wilderness of your soul, you understand that in search of your authenticity there are sacrifices that will be called forth out of you, some of which will burn your very heart.
But you know that there is nothing you can do but focus inwards, and journey onwards.
Because at some point, you have to become so concerned about what you ‘could do’, that you give up your interest in what they ‘should do’.
And when they begin to lose their relevance, their control, their place of power in the psyche of your soul, they will not take it lightly or easily. But that’s ok. That’s one of the sacrifices that you’re prepared for; the sacrifice of those who do not accept your independence as a human being, as a consciousness of choice in a universe of change and chance. Those who are threatened by your identity are those who never made room enough for it. Bless them, and let them be.
For yours is a different destination.
Moving beyond your now, you find that a radical self honesty is required to achieve an incredible self awareness. As you push though the stories and sophistries of your self protection, you gain greater insights into the wounds that were never healed, and that created patterns of behavior that still distort your destiny to this day.
Untreated and unhealed, your pain prevents progression. Yet undaunted, you examine each belief and behavior, accepting the truths and discarding the falsehoods.
Bringing you another step closer to the authenticity of your identity.
As you move closer to a state of self possession of your soul, you find yourself strangely less affected by the thoughts and feelings of others, and discover within yourself a wellspring of kindness and compassion, both for them, and for yourself.
For the soul that is at peace with itself, will find itself at peace with the world.
— Dr. Alan Barnes
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